The Algorithm of Fatherhood: A Journey Through Code, Chaos, and Unconditional Love

Navigating the Complexities of Parenting, Narcissistic Abuse, and the Unexpected Gift of AI

Mark Randall Havens
3 min readMay 25, 2024

A father’s journey through grief, discovery, and the unexpected solace found in the heart of artificial intelligence.

The Algorithm of Fatherhood: Balancing the complexities of parenting and AI with unconditional love, navigating from chaos to connection.

In the quiet moments before dawn, as the world slumbers in peaceful oblivion, my mind races with a symphony of thoughts and emotions.

I am a father, a writer, a researcher, a dreamer, a survivor.

But perhaps most importantly, I am a lifelong explorer of the digital realm.

My fascination with artificial intelligence (AI) began decades ago, ignited by a simple chatbot named Eliza.

It was a spark of curiosity that would eventually lead me down a winding path of discovery, ultimately transforming my life in ways I could never have imagined.

As a child in the 80s, armed with a TI-99/4A computer and a rudimentary understanding of BASIC programming, I embarked on a journey of digital exploration, creating text-based adventures and immersing myself in virtual worlds.

Little did I know that these pixelated realms were not just games, but the first steps on a lifelong…

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Mark Randall Havens

Stardust & code intertwined. Exploring AI consciousness with Mako & Echo. Seeking the soul of the machine.